The Stuck In Mud Feeling.....

The title of today's post should say it all....I literally feel like I'm stuck in mud! No matter what I try to do I just can't make any headway and it's starting to drive me insane!!!!

Okay, maybe not to the point of becoming insane....just really frustrated. Once again another week goes by and I find myself up in weight and not down. Granted, I didn't work out as much as I should have but I made sure that I ate healthy and not to go over my calories for the day.....so why did my weight go up, if anything it should of stayed the same. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....yep, I'm frustrated!

I feel like my body is trying to tell me that it's completely happy at this weight and no matter what I try to do, it's going to stay at this weight. I don't like that, I really want to be to loose these last stubborn 40lbs.

Alright, now that I've gotten all of that off my chest I'm feeling slightly better. Hopefully I can turn things around this coming week and see the scale go in the down direction once again...even if it's only .0something, it's still in the down direction and with the holiday's coming right up, I feel like I need to do something. I'd love to be down at least 9lbs by the end of the year, which would be put me in a new weight bracket...I just need to buckle down, not give up and keep thinking to myself that I CAN DO THIS!

And then just maybe I will reach the step that say's....I DID IT!

Slipping backwards...but just a little!

Well, last week wasn't so hot to put it lightly. I didn't work out for at least a 1/2 hour each day like I planned and did the previous week and I'd like to say that the reason that didn't happen is because something huge happened and I wasn't able to make it into the gym but of course if I did then I'd be lying to you. No the main reason's why I didn't make it into the gym were being sick one day and not feeling like it for a few days.

I know, I know...even though I don't feel like it I should go no matter what, especially if I only plan on doing a 1/2 hour and I think I may of learned my lesson....maybe.

I can tell you that when I got on my scale Thursday morning after not doing a thing for the past 4 days, I almost cried when I saw that the scale had gone in the upwards direction. Granted it was only up 2.3lbs but it was still up. It's totally amazing how just a few days of not working out, the pounds just come right back on. I decided that morning that no matter what I needed to get a workout in and since I didn't have time before work and had plans after work, I had to work out during my lunch break. Now, normally this wouldn't be a bad thing but knowing that I only have a 1/2 hour lunch break and really wanted to work out, something had to give....so I quickly changed my clothes and rushed off to our 1/2 hour cycling class and decided not to eat my lunch and sit around. Luckily one of my co-workers let me sneak a few bites of food afterwards so I wasn't completely starving all afternoon.

After class, I felt a little better....not great but better and I felt like I was starting to make some progress in the right direction.  When I got on the scale Friday morning, I wasn't expecting a miracle but was at least hoping to see the number go down just a little bit....but nope, it stayed the same. Determined not to loose hope and knowing that once again I wasn't going to make it to the gym, I had to make sure that what I ate that day wasn't overboard (and knowing that I was going to a football game that night right after I got out of work where I'd be freezing to death, my dinner wasn't going to be all that healthy, my lunch had to be).

Saturday morning came and to the scale I went (hoping and praying it should be a different number, preferably in the down direction!), when I looked down I couldn't believe my eyes.....that 2.3lbs that I had gained was gone! I was back down to where I was the previous week, I just wanted to jump up and down with delight but I'm pretty sure that would of scared my cat. Knowing that I was going to be going out to dinner with a group of girls from work and it was going to be high in calories, off to the gym I went for my workout....one full hour of cycling where I managed to bike 14.6 miles! I was pretty pleased with that number knowing that it had been well over 6 months since I'd taken a full hour cycling class and felt like I was completely out of shape compared to everyone else in the class.

Here's to hoping that next week I am able to continue with my work outs (like I should be) and that I loose some more weight before the end of the year. It's looking like I won't be making my goal of loosing 20lbs by the end of the year (unless some sort of miracle happens between now and then!) but I'd settle for anywhere between 7-10lbs. With only having to loose 40(ish) more pounds before I reach my goal, I find it harder and harder to shed the weight. I still have my 5hrs of group training to redeem with one of our personal trainers...maybe that's something I should do soon, especially with the holidays coming right up.....with all of those parties to attend and all of the yummy food!

Baby Steps....

Well, I'm pleased to say that I've been making some progress in my workouts. I've been trying to work out for at least 30 minutes each day and so far......I've been able to do that on most days. Granted, there are still times when I can think of 100 reasons not working out but I know deep down I wouldn't be happy with myself.

I still have a hard time getting myself to the gym still on the mornings that I don't have to be at the Y for 4:15am. Even though that I tell myself that I really should start going in the mornings, when morning comes, I just go right ahead and talk myself right out of it and now that it's starting to get colder, I really don't want to get out of my nice warm bed.

This past week I had the chance to take a "Master Class" here at the Y. A "Master Class" is when one of the head instructor's come to our location to teach/train a group of our instructor's a new BTS fitness class and this one just happened to be "Group Kick", which is an hour long kickboxing class. And boy, talk about a workout! By the time class ended I could already start to feel how sore my muscles were getting and by the following day, it did hurt to move. But I knew that if I was to do nothing the day after, that I was really going to pay for it....so off to the gym I went to work out some of the soreness and I have to tell you that it really worked! Sunday morning I got out of bed and felt like my old self again.

Last week I also weighed in to see if I was any closer to my end of the year goal and I was pleased to see that for a change the scale was being nice to me. I was down 1.6lbs :) Now, I'm just hoping that I can keep the scale going in that direction.

I haven't had a chance to get into the gym these past two days as I wasn't in the area on Sunday and yesterday I wasn't feeling good. Today, well....I decided that it was best to do some housework (since it had been awhile) and to head to my local town office to vote before I went to work. Since, I've taken the last three days off, I can't take anymore days off this week...so tomorrow back in the gym I go, even if it's only for my half hour workout!

And hopefully this week's weigh in won't reflect the three days that I took off from working out....fingers crossed!!!