I really don't want to write this....it kinda makes me want to hide away from the world but we all have to face the things we don't like right?? So, here it is.................I'VE GAINED!
The two words that I was hoping to avoid writing about this year have surfaced. It wouldn't be so bad if say the gain was only a few pounds but no....that's not the case. If we go by my last post (which was April...yikes, I should really get better on writing in this blog) then I've gained about 10lbs, if I go by my first post of the 2014 year then I've gained 8lbs. Of course, I could say...well since I wasn't really eating well during some of the those months and did a "semi-fad" diet, then from my "TRUE" weight, I've only gained 4lbs. I like the last one better than the other two...it doesn't make me look like that much of a failure!
Granted the past few months I hadn't been working out as much as I had done in the past (summer's are really hard for me for some odd reason) and I have been going out to eat more than usual...like once or twice a week since May....I know, not the best thing for me to do.
So, I'm trying to start over again (which is something that I feel like I do almost all of the time!) and I'm hoping that I can stick with it. I'm still going out to dinners but I'm trying to make them less often (or at least cut them down) and when I do, try not to eat as much. I'm also trying to get more active in the gym. The last few weeks I've been getting in for at least 3-4 times and have even added in some times during my lunch breaks. I haven't had any big changes in my weight since I've started but I'm hoping things will change shortly. I've been able to maintain around this same weight for about 2 weeks now, which isn't really a bad thing but I know that it's not a good weight for me to be in. Currently, I'm 46lbs away from my goal weight...which I'm starting to think I'll never really see and I should except that. So, if I go by my new goal weight that would make me 35lbs away. I also know that it's not going to happen this year but hopefully by the end of 2015 I can make some progress towards it. I may need to inquire the help of others to do this since I seem to be struggling on my own once again. I don't know, I just know that when I look in the mirror I'm not also happy with what I see (I've even thought about having surgery to take off some of the excess skin/weight but have now decided to put that on the back burner).
I'd say keep your fingers crossed for me but it hasn't worked in the past so maybe it's time to find something else...maybe what I need is a miracle!
Monday, October 13, 2014
Monday, April 7, 2014
Quarter of the year in and the only thing lost is time....
Well here we are, four months into the new year and where do I stand in the goal I've set for myself....slightly closer than before but still have a ways to go!
Currently my weight stands anywhere from 27lbs to 36.2lbs from my goal weight and the loss of 100lbs and the reason being for such a big range in numbers is all due to what scale I stand on...oh why can't they all be the same! Granted, I like the lower number much better and saying that I only have to loose 27lbs by December 31st sounds a whole lot better than 36.2lbs but I'm thinking that maybe I should go for somewhere in the middle, say like....31lbs.
The past few months have been interesting to say the very least and my weight has shown it. Some days I feel like I've gained 500lbs (I know that's impossible to do in one day but trust me, it sure can feel like it) and then there are other days when I do feel skinny and happy. I do have to say that after driving to and from Florida this year, I didn't gain as much as I thought I was going to and that made me happy. Granted I did gain, but it was only a few pounds.
I almost joined the Biggest Mover here at work again. I even went as far as filling out the paperwork and submitting my name. But at the last minute I withdrew my name....probably not the smartest thing to do but I really want to try and do this on my own. Since then, I've only been to the gym a small handful of times and know that I should get my behind in there more. I've also looked at joining a few other classes we're starting up here but haven't decided if that's something that I want .to do yet or not. Knowing me though, I'll wait until the last minute to decide and by then it'll be to late.
I can tell you that I've signed up for two different "road races" this year, even though they're both about having fun and not keeping track of your time. One is here in the city I work in and it's called "Color Bangor" and the second one I signed up for is in the southern part of the state and that one is called "Color Me Rad". Both of these races are 5k's and both of them have you getting covered in color. This first one I'm doing, I'm doing it with my mom and others from work...while the second is going to be with one of my friends who's never done a race before. It should be fun and I can't wait.
I'm hoping that by the next time I post, I can report a better weight loss or better yet, saying that I've made it to the gym on a much more regular basis!
Currently my weight stands anywhere from 27lbs to 36.2lbs from my goal weight and the loss of 100lbs and the reason being for such a big range in numbers is all due to what scale I stand on...oh why can't they all be the same! Granted, I like the lower number much better and saying that I only have to loose 27lbs by December 31st sounds a whole lot better than 36.2lbs but I'm thinking that maybe I should go for somewhere in the middle, say like....31lbs.
The past few months have been interesting to say the very least and my weight has shown it. Some days I feel like I've gained 500lbs (I know that's impossible to do in one day but trust me, it sure can feel like it) and then there are other days when I do feel skinny and happy. I do have to say that after driving to and from Florida this year, I didn't gain as much as I thought I was going to and that made me happy. Granted I did gain, but it was only a few pounds.
I almost joined the Biggest Mover here at work again. I even went as far as filling out the paperwork and submitting my name. But at the last minute I withdrew my name....probably not the smartest thing to do but I really want to try and do this on my own. Since then, I've only been to the gym a small handful of times and know that I should get my behind in there more. I've also looked at joining a few other classes we're starting up here but haven't decided if that's something that I want .to do yet or not. Knowing me though, I'll wait until the last minute to decide and by then it'll be to late.
I can tell you that I've signed up for two different "road races" this year, even though they're both about having fun and not keeping track of your time. One is here in the city I work in and it's called "Color Bangor" and the second one I signed up for is in the southern part of the state and that one is called "Color Me Rad". Both of these races are 5k's and both of them have you getting covered in color. This first one I'm doing, I'm doing it with my mom and others from work...while the second is going to be with one of my friends who's never done a race before. It should be fun and I can't wait.
I'm hoping that by the next time I post, I can report a better weight loss or better yet, saying that I've made it to the gym on a much more regular basis!
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
January 2014, New Month-New Year....starting FRESH!
As the first month of the new year comes to a close I'd love to report that I was able to loose a bunch of weight but who am I kidding....that post will not be happening, especially anytime in the near future!
No, instead I've manage to loose a small amount of weight during this month and I have to say that I'm okay with that. Granted, big numbers are always a plus and put a huge smile on my face! I've come to realize that it's not about the number on the scale, it's about how I feel and trying to live a healthy lifestyle. If I can learn how to loose the weight slowly and healthy by doing everything the right way and not follow the latest FAD diet, then I think that I'm doing something right. I also believe that the approach that I'm taking will also help me in the long run. I'm still enjoying all of my favorite foods, especially the yummy desserts that I've been making lately because you can't tell yourself that you can't have something. Life doesn't work that way and it only makes you want it more, it's all about moderation. If you want a piece of chocolate, go ahead and have a small piece...just not the whole candy bar!
I'm hoping that 2014 is going to be my year and I'm going to ask some of my friends and family for their help in doing this. I've been working towards a certain goal...pretty much my ULTIMATE CRAZY DREAM since I started this blog back in 2010 and I'm happy to say that I can almost see that finish line. To reach this finish line I need to loose 38lbs by December 31, 2014 and I will have lost a grand total of 100lbs!
So, here's to a year of hope and realizing my ultimate crazy dream come true....keeping my fingers crossed :)
No, instead I've manage to loose a small amount of weight during this month and I have to say that I'm okay with that. Granted, big numbers are always a plus and put a huge smile on my face! I've come to realize that it's not about the number on the scale, it's about how I feel and trying to live a healthy lifestyle. If I can learn how to loose the weight slowly and healthy by doing everything the right way and not follow the latest FAD diet, then I think that I'm doing something right. I also believe that the approach that I'm taking will also help me in the long run. I'm still enjoying all of my favorite foods, especially the yummy desserts that I've been making lately because you can't tell yourself that you can't have something. Life doesn't work that way and it only makes you want it more, it's all about moderation. If you want a piece of chocolate, go ahead and have a small piece...just not the whole candy bar!
I'm hoping that 2014 is going to be my year and I'm going to ask some of my friends and family for their help in doing this. I've been working towards a certain goal...pretty much my ULTIMATE CRAZY DREAM since I started this blog back in 2010 and I'm happy to say that I can almost see that finish line. To reach this finish line I need to loose 38lbs by December 31, 2014 and I will have lost a grand total of 100lbs!
So, here's to a year of hope and realizing my ultimate crazy dream come true....keeping my fingers crossed :)
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Closing out 2013 without a BIG BANG!
As the end of the year has come to a close, I was hoping to say that I was able to reach my weight lost goal but I'm sad to say that is not true. That's not saying that I didn't come close...okay, who am I kidding I was no where close! I did however was able to loose roughly 3-4 pounds out of the 9 pounds I wanted to loose by the end of the year, so I was happy with that. I was also thrilled with the fact that for the first time I can remember I was able to either maintain or even loose just a little bit during the holiday season....yay me!!!!
As I also look back on the year part of me feels like I didn't really do anything "outstanding" as I have in year's past. Which surprisingly kinda makes me feel a little on the sad side and I never in a million year thought that I'd miss doing a race....apparently I do like to run, go figure!
So, for the new year I'm going to have to find something "outstanding" to do (who knows maybe even two different things) to make me feel a little better. Heck, if I have another goal in place...just maybe I'll be able to move a little closer to my weight goal!
As I also look back on the year part of me feels like I didn't really do anything "outstanding" as I have in year's past. Which surprisingly kinda makes me feel a little on the sad side and I never in a million year thought that I'd miss doing a race....apparently I do like to run, go figure!
So, for the new year I'm going to have to find something "outstanding" to do (who knows maybe even two different things) to make me feel a little better. Heck, if I have another goal in place...just maybe I'll be able to move a little closer to my weight goal!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
The Stuck In Mud Feeling.....
The title of today's post should say it all....I literally feel like I'm stuck in mud! No matter what I try to do I just can't make any headway and it's starting to drive me insane!!!!
Okay, maybe not to the point of becoming insane....just really frustrated. Once again another week goes by and I find myself up in weight and not down. Granted, I didn't work out as much as I should have but I made sure that I ate healthy and not to go over my calories for the day.....so why did my weight go up, if anything it should of stayed the same. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....yep, I'm frustrated!
I feel like my body is trying to tell me that it's completely happy at this weight and no matter what I try to do, it's going to stay at this weight. I don't like that, I really want to be to loose these last stubborn 40lbs.
Alright, now that I've gotten all of that off my chest I'm feeling slightly better. Hopefully I can turn things around this coming week and see the scale go in the down direction once again...even if it's only .0something, it's still in the down direction and with the holiday's coming right up, I feel like I need to do something. I'd love to be down at least 9lbs by the end of the year, which would be put me in a new weight bracket...I just need to buckle down, not give up and keep thinking to myself that I CAN DO THIS!
And then just maybe I will reach the step that say's....I DID IT!
Okay, maybe not to the point of becoming insane....just really frustrated. Once again another week goes by and I find myself up in weight and not down. Granted, I didn't work out as much as I should have but I made sure that I ate healthy and not to go over my calories for the day.....so why did my weight go up, if anything it should of stayed the same. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....yep, I'm frustrated!
I feel like my body is trying to tell me that it's completely happy at this weight and no matter what I try to do, it's going to stay at this weight. I don't like that, I really want to be to loose these last stubborn 40lbs.
Alright, now that I've gotten all of that off my chest I'm feeling slightly better. Hopefully I can turn things around this coming week and see the scale go in the down direction once again...even if it's only .0something, it's still in the down direction and with the holiday's coming right up, I feel like I need to do something. I'd love to be down at least 9lbs by the end of the year, which would be put me in a new weight bracket...I just need to buckle down, not give up and keep thinking to myself that I CAN DO THIS!
And then just maybe I will reach the step that say's....I DID IT!
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Slipping backwards...but just a little!
Well, last week wasn't so hot to put it lightly. I didn't work out for at least a 1/2 hour each day like I planned and did the previous week and I'd like to say that the reason that didn't happen is because something huge happened and I wasn't able to make it into the gym but of course if I did then I'd be lying to you. No the main reason's why I didn't make it into the gym were being sick one day and not feeling like it for a few days.
I know, I know...even though I don't feel like it I should go no matter what, especially if I only plan on doing a 1/2 hour and I think I may of learned my lesson....maybe.
I can tell you that when I got on my scale Thursday morning after not doing a thing for the past 4 days, I almost cried when I saw that the scale had gone in the upwards direction. Granted it was only up 2.3lbs but it was still up. It's totally amazing how just a few days of not working out, the pounds just come right back on. I decided that morning that no matter what I needed to get a workout in and since I didn't have time before work and had plans after work, I had to work out during my lunch break. Now, normally this wouldn't be a bad thing but knowing that I only have a 1/2 hour lunch break and really wanted to work out, something had to give....so I quickly changed my clothes and rushed off to our 1/2 hour cycling class and decided not to eat my lunch and sit around. Luckily one of my co-workers let me sneak a few bites of food afterwards so I wasn't completely starving all afternoon.
After class, I felt a little better....not great but better and I felt like I was starting to make some progress in the right direction. When I got on the scale Friday morning, I wasn't expecting a miracle but was at least hoping to see the number go down just a little bit....but nope, it stayed the same. Determined not to loose hope and knowing that once again I wasn't going to make it to the gym, I had to make sure that what I ate that day wasn't overboard (and knowing that I was going to a football game that night right after I got out of work where I'd be freezing to death, my dinner wasn't going to be all that healthy, my lunch had to be).
Saturday morning came and to the scale I went (hoping and praying it should be a different number, preferably in the down direction!), when I looked down I couldn't believe my eyes.....that 2.3lbs that I had gained was gone! I was back down to where I was the previous week, I just wanted to jump up and down with delight but I'm pretty sure that would of scared my cat. Knowing that I was going to be going out to dinner with a group of girls from work and it was going to be high in calories, off to the gym I went for my workout....one full hour of cycling where I managed to bike 14.6 miles! I was pretty pleased with that number knowing that it had been well over 6 months since I'd taken a full hour cycling class and felt like I was completely out of shape compared to everyone else in the class.
Here's to hoping that next week I am able to continue with my work outs (like I should be) and that I loose some more weight before the end of the year. It's looking like I won't be making my goal of loosing 20lbs by the end of the year (unless some sort of miracle happens between now and then!) but I'd settle for anywhere between 7-10lbs. With only having to loose 40(ish) more pounds before I reach my goal, I find it harder and harder to shed the weight. I still have my 5hrs of group training to redeem with one of our personal trainers...maybe that's something I should do soon, especially with the holidays coming right up.....with all of those parties to attend and all of the yummy food!
I know, I know...even though I don't feel like it I should go no matter what, especially if I only plan on doing a 1/2 hour and I think I may of learned my lesson....maybe.
I can tell you that when I got on my scale Thursday morning after not doing a thing for the past 4 days, I almost cried when I saw that the scale had gone in the upwards direction. Granted it was only up 2.3lbs but it was still up. It's totally amazing how just a few days of not working out, the pounds just come right back on. I decided that morning that no matter what I needed to get a workout in and since I didn't have time before work and had plans after work, I had to work out during my lunch break. Now, normally this wouldn't be a bad thing but knowing that I only have a 1/2 hour lunch break and really wanted to work out, something had to give....so I quickly changed my clothes and rushed off to our 1/2 hour cycling class and decided not to eat my lunch and sit around. Luckily one of my co-workers let me sneak a few bites of food afterwards so I wasn't completely starving all afternoon.
After class, I felt a little better....not great but better and I felt like I was starting to make some progress in the right direction. When I got on the scale Friday morning, I wasn't expecting a miracle but was at least hoping to see the number go down just a little bit....but nope, it stayed the same. Determined not to loose hope and knowing that once again I wasn't going to make it to the gym, I had to make sure that what I ate that day wasn't overboard (and knowing that I was going to a football game that night right after I got out of work where I'd be freezing to death, my dinner wasn't going to be all that healthy, my lunch had to be).
Saturday morning came and to the scale I went (hoping and praying it should be a different number, preferably in the down direction!), when I looked down I couldn't believe my eyes.....that 2.3lbs that I had gained was gone! I was back down to where I was the previous week, I just wanted to jump up and down with delight but I'm pretty sure that would of scared my cat. Knowing that I was going to be going out to dinner with a group of girls from work and it was going to be high in calories, off to the gym I went for my workout....one full hour of cycling where I managed to bike 14.6 miles! I was pretty pleased with that number knowing that it had been well over 6 months since I'd taken a full hour cycling class and felt like I was completely out of shape compared to everyone else in the class.
Here's to hoping that next week I am able to continue with my work outs (like I should be) and that I loose some more weight before the end of the year. It's looking like I won't be making my goal of loosing 20lbs by the end of the year (unless some sort of miracle happens between now and then!) but I'd settle for anywhere between 7-10lbs. With only having to loose 40(ish) more pounds before I reach my goal, I find it harder and harder to shed the weight. I still have my 5hrs of group training to redeem with one of our personal trainers...maybe that's something I should do soon, especially with the holidays coming right up.....with all of those parties to attend and all of the yummy food!
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Baby Steps....
Well, I'm pleased to say that I've been making some progress in my workouts. I've been trying to work out for at least 30 minutes each day and so far......I've been able to do that on most days. Granted, there are still times when I can think of 100 reasons not working out but I know deep down I wouldn't be happy with myself.
I still have a hard time getting myself to the gym still on the mornings that I don't have to be at the Y for 4:15am. Even though that I tell myself that I really should start going in the mornings, when morning comes, I just go right ahead and talk myself right out of it and now that it's starting to get colder, I really don't want to get out of my nice warm bed.
This past week I had the chance to take a "Master Class" here at the Y. A "Master Class" is when one of the head instructor's come to our location to teach/train a group of our instructor's a new BTS fitness class and this one just happened to be "Group Kick", which is an hour long kickboxing class. And boy, talk about a workout! By the time class ended I could already start to feel how sore my muscles were getting and by the following day, it did hurt to move. But I knew that if I was to do nothing the day after, that I was really going to pay for it....so off to the gym I went to work out some of the soreness and I have to tell you that it really worked! Sunday morning I got out of bed and felt like my old self again.
Last week I also weighed in to see if I was any closer to my end of the year goal and I was pleased to see that for a change the scale was being nice to me. I was down 1.6lbs :) Now, I'm just hoping that I can keep the scale going in that direction.
I haven't had a chance to get into the gym these past two days as I wasn't in the area on Sunday and yesterday I wasn't feeling good. Today, well....I decided that it was best to do some housework (since it had been awhile) and to head to my local town office to vote before I went to work. Since, I've taken the last three days off, I can't take anymore days off this week...so tomorrow back in the gym I go, even if it's only for my half hour workout!
And hopefully this week's weigh in won't reflect the three days that I took off from working out....fingers crossed!!!
I still have a hard time getting myself to the gym still on the mornings that I don't have to be at the Y for 4:15am. Even though that I tell myself that I really should start going in the mornings, when morning comes, I just go right ahead and talk myself right out of it and now that it's starting to get colder, I really don't want to get out of my nice warm bed.
This past week I had the chance to take a "Master Class" here at the Y. A "Master Class" is when one of the head instructor's come to our location to teach/train a group of our instructor's a new BTS fitness class and this one just happened to be "Group Kick", which is an hour long kickboxing class. And boy, talk about a workout! By the time class ended I could already start to feel how sore my muscles were getting and by the following day, it did hurt to move. But I knew that if I was to do nothing the day after, that I was really going to pay for it....so off to the gym I went to work out some of the soreness and I have to tell you that it really worked! Sunday morning I got out of bed and felt like my old self again.
Last week I also weighed in to see if I was any closer to my end of the year goal and I was pleased to see that for a change the scale was being nice to me. I was down 1.6lbs :) Now, I'm just hoping that I can keep the scale going in that direction.
I haven't had a chance to get into the gym these past two days as I wasn't in the area on Sunday and yesterday I wasn't feeling good. Today, well....I decided that it was best to do some housework (since it had been awhile) and to head to my local town office to vote before I went to work. Since, I've taken the last three days off, I can't take anymore days off this week...so tomorrow back in the gym I go, even if it's only for my half hour workout!
And hopefully this week's weigh in won't reflect the three days that I took off from working out....fingers crossed!!!
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